Saturday, January 4, 2014

Happy Birthday Brayden!

My dearest Brayden,

Today is your 2nd Birthday, and I am not sure where the last 2 years have gone. The day you were born was one of the most frightening days of my life, until exactly one year ago when we were told they found a "mass" in your head that wasn't there when you were born. That day my world came crashing down faster than I even knew was possible. While the last year has been rough, it has also been filled with wonderful memories of the fun things we have done. Last year, on your first birthday, I wondered what the future held for you. I wondered if you would have the chance to celebrate another birthday, or if you would get the chance to take your first steps. In some ways your diagnosis has taken some "things" from us, but I believe it has given us back more than it has taken. I refuse to allow the diagnosis define you or us, and I believe this journey has changed us for the better. I know that I have a new appreciation for each milestone you check off the list, and I didn't have that appreciation before your were diagnosed.

In your short two years of life you have endured more terrible things than I have endured in my own 29 years, and most of them you have done with a smile. You have become quite the determined (and somewhat stubborn) little boy, and I am extremely proud to be your mother. Every day that passes I am amazed at how brave you really are. I don't know how we could continue down this journey if you weren't so brave.

There is one thing for certain, and that is that the next year is probably going to be tough. Have no doubt, there will be plenty of fun things to be done, and fun places to go. We will keep taking things as they come, and dealing with them one day at a time. I hope for an easy year, one without tumor progression or chemo would be best, but regardless of what happens we will get through it.

Love you so much-

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